Once I Had the Rarest Rose That Ever Deigned to Bloom Cruel Winter Chilled the Bud And Stole My Flower Too Soon

Ok so this week was absolute HELL. Sunday when I got home from my dads, not even two seconds into the ride home and I started sobbing. I didn't stay around the house that day, all I did was walk around the town. I didn't want to go home, but it's not like I could just go and sleep on a park bench, she'd call the cops and it's not a good idea to sleep in a park around here. Monday, I broke down in school and was sent to the social worker AND the guidance counselor. But that night I talked to my mom. I told what they said and how it doesn't matter what she thinks. In the end most issue with her were cleared up. But not even an hour later, I suddenly got sick. I'm soo not going into detail about what happened, but I was in so much pain I actually passed out. I lost my hearing for a few minutes and my sight. Nothing big for me really, its happened twice before. Obviously I didn't go to school the next day, my mom wouldn't take me to the ER though. Wednesday I also stayed home and we found out I have that like two week long stomach virus that I some how caught even though it's not contagious. Thursday I attempted school but after gym I got reaaallly sick so I was sent home. I'm feeling better now, and I made it all day Friday, which was awesome. We did Tai Chi, Yoga and Oragami in Global class, it was amazing.

But last night my mom went out with some friends. And this guy that once hit on me because he thought I was 18 called, because everyone thinks I've got this crush on him, nuuuu. I was BEYOND embarrassed, I told my mom don't ever do that again. He was like "Will you be my date for the parade?" So I was obviously cornered and couldn't well, not agree. And he just kept teasing me, it really sucked. But I am NOT going to the parade I am staying home and talking to Eli. And tonight, I am going to dinner! Haha, I haven't gone out it what seems like forever.

Being home alone last night was amazing. I had one window open, and it seemed to let the entire world in. It felt like a summer night mixed with an autumn evening. And since then I have been in a really good mood. I do hope summer comes soon, I can't wait.

'Cause Nobody Wants to be the Last One there, And Everyone Wants to Feel Like Someone Cares

Oh joy it's the weekend. I'd first like to say that this week, was like a complete contradiction. It was complete and total hell. But at the same time basically heaven. Well, Monday I was, sick. Deathly sick you could say. I slept aaaall day. Monday was actually kinda nice. Tuesday, well, Tuesday was just school really and getting harassed by asshole jocks and preps. Wednesday, hmm...decent day, hung out with some friends and stuff. Thursday, ugh, worst...second worst day of the week. That day in school I was criticized for wearing sunglasses in school. So now I'm seen as even more a of a freak then I already was. Later I went to dinner with a friend for his birthday. His mom and my mom took us to Hiro's, this really cool Hibachi place. Ish not as cool as Sakura's because they interact with the customer and do a lot of tricks. But the guy made a shrimp into a bunny! It had eyes too! But anyway, not even a mintue after I ate, I got wicked sick! My face was all flushes and everything. This went into Friday, worst day of my entire life. I told my mom that morning I still felt sick, and she went off. She yelled at me about how I'm always sick and missing school. Then she said with the way things are going, I'll never amount to anything, and she said I was worthless. That day I barely made any effort to even breathe. I wore sunglasses again, because I kept crying and I didn't want anyone to see. When I got home I packed my stuff and waited out on the porch for my dad to come pick me up. She yelled at me when she got home, for not saying anything to her. She said sunday we would talk, and apologized, at least I think it was an apology, I don't know. Anyway I left and broke down infront of my dad in the car. And I believe I told you about my dad, so yeah, just imagine how that went. And now tonight I have to go to a family dinner which will KILL ME!!

Mina, R.I.P- Damn family dinners x_x

The Bridge is Crossed, So Stand and Watch It Burn, We've Past the Point of No Return

"When will the blood begin to rise? The sleeping bud bust into bloom, when will the flames at last, consume us? Past the Point of No Return. The final thresh hold. The Bridge is Crosses, So Stand and Watch It Burn, We've Past the Point of No Return..."

Well this week has been less then pleasant, but this weekend, though I hated being with my Aunt on my dads side of the family, I feel better today. A lot better. Today it feels like I've started a new begining, almost like starting fresh but not leaving everything behind.

During the week school was actually alright. I had the pressure of finishing part of an essay for science about the weather in Targoviste, Romania. Of course it's not suprising that I chose to do my project on somewhere in Romania.

Lastly I completed a new picture. I have chibified...Erik! ^^ Yesh I chibified the Phantom! It didn't come out to well, but I included it in this post.

This weekend was spent at my aunts house. Much angst. It was horrible! My god I wanted to kill myself!! None of my fathers side accepts me! Not only did they judge me, they basically shived food down my throat!

Lastly, many strange, paranormal things, have happened this weekend. At my fathers house, I saw a white figure run up the stairs and then down the hall. I brushed it off then suddenly I saw something red flash by the tv. Quickly I turned away and grabbed somehting to eat, because I was like starving. It was then I heard a mans voice call out my name a few times then laughter. I bolted out of the kitchen to my room.

Then today, at my aunts. I was awaken by the sudden pain of someone SITTING ON ME! There was no one there I could see, but I could clearly feel the pressure of someone sitting on my rib cage and stomach. I thought I'd suffocate, but they go off me. I stayed in bed, thinking what ever it was was gone. I heard footsteps coming towards the bed, I ran out of there so fast I was like invisible to the human eye. Later today everyone was napping but me of course. I walked down the hall into the kitchen, suddenly one of my little half brothers toys turned on by it's self. I flipped out^^".