Standing At the Begining with You.

First post ever, I'll begin with the most dramatic and stressing thing in my life.

This weekend, I was supposed to go with my father. But like many other times, I got out of it. I said I was too sore from circuit training, which we are doing in gym. Well, from this you could probably tell, my parents are divorced. They've been divorced since I was 1 or 2 I believe. My mother left my father because he was he was on a lot of drugs. When my mother left him, not too long after I believe, we went to jail for some money thing. I used ask my mom where my "daddy" was. She said he was off getting better. I found out for my self where he was, on my 5th birthday, I got a card from him. On the back and said, something or other prison. Five is old enough to know what prison is. He got out and the next year is when I first really met my father. When I was younger, I was very attatched to him, I wanted to live with him instead of my mom. Soon I realized, that, well, I didn't. I started changing, redefining myself, I found my true form. Well my ass of a father didn't like that. Once my metamorphisis from 5 year old princess to goth was complete, my father in my view had completely changed. He called, and still does call me, a Devil Child and a Demon. My fathers side of the family is very prejudice and non-accepting.

My mother. Oh god I could go on about her and my father for hours. My mother and I used to ve very close. But now, I really don't know what happened. She yells and screams at me. She doesn't think I'll amount to anything and that I'll be in highschool for five years. When truth is, I'm a very good student! I'll be taking a college course next year, and I'll only be in 10th grade!! She didn't even say "Congrats." or "I'm proud of you." When I told her.

Here's where both sides mix in. Like I said, I'm gothic, punk, dark, all of that. That and, I'm not very religious, no, not at all really. Both sides of my family are Hard Core Roman Catholic. Now imagin how that is for me. My family has been saying that I "need to be saved" and things like I should read the bible! To go coincide with the religion, you could probably guess they're prejusice towards bisexuals, gays, lesbians, transexuals, all of that. I've tried to tell them I'm Bi, but they don't listen, they laugh. So, because of that, I keep a secret from them. A big secret. I keep because I know my life would crumble and be destroyed if they knew. The secret. I am really Bi, and, I have a girlfriend, our one year aniversary is May 24.

If my family ever found out, they'd force us apart, and never let me talk to her again.